"If you are in doubt whether to write a letter or not, don't. And the advice applies to many doubts in life besides that of letter writing..."

I have NEVER touched on this subject with anyone, but this has scarred me for life and it is always on my mind every single moment of every day...

On tha great day of March 20, 1989 Tha Worlds Greatest was born to parents Melissa Lair and Timothy Spotville... Sounds like everything was everything right? Well, Not really... Once I turned 2 years old and after living in New Orleans for a while my dad left me and my mom. I got to see him once when I was about 14, because we went visit him in New Orleans, but between tha age of 2 and 14 I haven't heard from him and between tha age of 14 and 19 I still haven't heard from him... I swear I am not tha type of dude to cry or anything of that nature, but when I think about this I just break down and cry, because tha worst feeling in tha world is wondering what? and wondering why?

I would just like to know what happened and why he left us... Sometimes I feel like "Man fuck that nigga" and other times I feel like "I don't know what happened so I can't really bad mouth him". I do feel a certain way about tha situation at hand though... I feel like if he wasn't ready to bring a child into this world to raise then he shouldn't have done such a thing and I feel that that was very immature of him to do so. Sometimes I wish I could just get in touch with him and just say "Fuck U", but like I said I don't really know what happened... For all I know him and my mother could've just decided to split up due to a certain reason.

On most holidays I stay to myself alone and just sit there and think about things and that always pops up into my thoughts and I just break out and cry and wonder why did that shit have to happen to me? It's not like I didn't have a father figure in my life growing up, because I had cousins, uncles, and my mom had boyfriends, but it's nothing like having your biological father in your life... I actually want to get in touch with him and go visit him to catch up on some things, but until that day comes I guess I'll just let tha tears fall to try and ease tha pain... - ...Tha Worlds Greatest...

"Because I have loved life, I shall have no sorrow to die..."

I don't even to know where to start with this one, but I do know one thing and that is that I haven't blogged in a while... I guess I only blog when I'm going through things and when shit is on my mind and well I have a lot of shit on my mind right now...

I started school last Monday on July 28th at Unitech Training Academy. I'm in school over there to become a Pharmacy Technician instead of going to a College or University this year, but once I finish at Unitech I guess I'll finish my Pre-Pharmacy at UL so I can then finish Pharmacy school at Xavier, but school has been ok these past few weeks, but I mean I'm just not used to going to bed early like this and getting up early in tha morning like that. Most of tha time I'm over there bored out of my mind, but in tha end it's all good, because I'm just getting that much closer to being a Pharmacy Tech.

Enough with that... Tha thing that is on my mind bothering me tha most is girls... yeah I said it girls and no I'm not having girl problems... I have 99 other problems and a girl isn't one, but while I'm on tha girl subject... I'm very confused right now with that, because I guess I just don't know what I want, but not even really not knowing what I want... I think I'm actually scared to make a move on this chick that I'm really feeling... So with that being said... There's this chick from Baton Rouge that I am REALLY feeling... Man I'm talking about a crazy swag and great personality and hey she's beautiful too. What more could a brother ask for? lol... I'm not scared to do anything in life, but I guess I'm just scared with this certain situation, because I don't know if she's feeling me...

I've decided not to get into a relationship with anyone, because these chicks out here are just not on that level to where I could actually see myself in a relationship with them and/or they're just not my type of girlfriend material...

So much more could be touched on with tha subject at hand, but my mind is also cluttered with other things which I'm about to write about in another blog post... with that being said... One Love... - ...Tha Worlds Greatest...