"If you are in doubt whether to write a letter or not, don't. And the advice applies to many doubts in life besides that of letter writing..."

I have NEVER touched on this subject with anyone, but this has scarred me for life and it is always on my mind every single moment of every day...

On tha great day of March 20, 1989 Tha Worlds Greatest was born to parents Melissa Lair and Timothy Spotville... Sounds like everything was everything right? Well, Not really... Once I turned 2 years old and after living in New Orleans for a while my dad left me and my mom. I got to see him once when I was about 14, because we went visit him in New Orleans, but between tha age of 2 and 14 I haven't heard from him and between tha age of 14 and 19 I still haven't heard from him... I swear I am not tha type of dude to cry or anything of that nature, but when I think about this I just break down and cry, because tha worst feeling in tha world is wondering what? and wondering why?

I would just like to know what happened and why he left us... Sometimes I feel like "Man fuck that nigga" and other times I feel like "I don't know what happened so I can't really bad mouth him". I do feel a certain way about tha situation at hand though... I feel like if he wasn't ready to bring a child into this world to raise then he shouldn't have done such a thing and I feel that that was very immature of him to do so. Sometimes I wish I could just get in touch with him and just say "Fuck U", but like I said I don't really know what happened... For all I know him and my mother could've just decided to split up due to a certain reason.

On most holidays I stay to myself alone and just sit there and think about things and that always pops up into my thoughts and I just break out and cry and wonder why did that shit have to happen to me? It's not like I didn't have a father figure in my life growing up, because I had cousins, uncles, and my mom had boyfriends, but it's nothing like having your biological father in your life... I actually want to get in touch with him and go visit him to catch up on some things, but until that day comes I guess I'll just let tha tears fall to try and ease tha pain... - ...Tha Worlds Greatest...